Finally, a purpose.

So I got to thinking the other day. I have poems and lyrics and what not that I write all the time and they are just scribbled in a collection of notebooks, making it nearly impossible to remember where I wrote that one song that one time...you know? So I figured why not put them here? That way they can be read, and I'll know where to come back for them in the future. Sound good? Here's a few new things to start off with.


memories of the heart
sometimes it's hard to remember
what it's like to not feel alone
when everyone I've loved before
has left me on my own.
yeah, life goes on. I've been just fine.
no really, I'm ok.
until I see that photograph
until I hear your name.
and before I know what's happening
I'm right back there again.
I feel the hurt, the loss of you
I still feel all the pain.
time can heal my wounded heart
but nothing heals the scars.
I think I'll always fight this thing,
these memories of the heart.


one wish
if I could have but just one wish
your face would come to mind.
the pain's so deep, the hurt so bad
the sorrow now is mine.
and since I cannot fix the things
making life so hard,
I'd wish for God to let me be
light shinning in your dark.
'cause sadness comes most often
'round the time the sun goes down
and all that's left are memories
the night time throws around.
so if I had but just one wish,
I'd make my wish for you
to see the light that shines like stars
from God, to me, to you.



And finally, a song.


keep on missing you
it takes a lot to make me stop
and remember you out loud.
the way you held me close
to let me know that you were proud.
all the crazy dreams
you pushed me to believe in
won't ever fully be complete
without you there to see them.

if the tears don't fall much anymore
it's not 'cause I've forgotten.
if I go on living in this life,
the memory's not gone
but if tomorrow finds me breaking
even one more time
I don't know what I'll do
because it hurts too much
to let my heart keep on missing you.

even after all this time
imagining what could have been
I can't give in to the hurt
won't let it bring me down again
but no matter how I try to build
a wall to keep me safe,
there's still my memories of you
haunting each step I take.

if the tears don't fall much anymore
it's not 'cause I've forgotten.
if I go on living in this life,
the memory's not gone
but if tomorrow finds me breaking
even one more time
I don't know what I'll do
because it hurts too much
to let my heart keep on missing you.

I want to still remember
but I'm scared of all the pain
without you here I'm less, it seems
the teardrops fall like rain.
I know my heart's not strong enough
to let it break again
but it's breaking anyway...
I'm breaking anyway

if the tears don't fall much anymore
it's not 'cause I've forgotten.
if I go on living in this life,
the memory's not gone
but if tomorrow finds me breaking
even one more time
I don't know what I'll do
because it hurts too much
to let my heart keep on missing you.

it hurts so much
but I can't stop my heart
from missing you.



Wow...sad few days there, eh? Gotta love writing like this to get it all out, though. Until next time.